Had a reaction to my Covid shot on September 3. Felt bad for a couple of weeks and the fatigue remains still. I decided to give my schedule to God. I simply can’t figure out what to do and what not to do. It’s up to Him to bring opportunities to me or to cancel them. It’s working better than me either taking on too much or not enough.

And amazingly, this month of debilitating fatigue has brought so many opportunities to talk about Jesus and what He’s taught me all these years. God is working in so many obvious ways in so many family members. So many God things happening that caused me to see a benefit of this fatigue. There’s no possible way I could think any of it was happening because of my ideas, my efforts, or my energy!! As I was thinking about this, I also surrendered all my efforts to reach my neighbors. None had worked. So, I asked God to bring some to me according to His will. I was walking the block just in front of my house – and a neighbor came home, and we talked 15 or 20 minutes. It was the best conversation we’ve ever had – even talked about Heaven and how to get there!

I know that without Him I can do nothing and with Him all things are possible. But somehow it seems that if I have an idea of what He wants I try to do it. If I have personal energy, I use it!! He’s working on that!! He has been for some time!! But watching Him do what only He can do in me and around me has been thrilling. Praying for God to pursue those He’s given to me that don’t know Him yet!

This is from Mastering Life Before it’s too Late by Robert J. Morgan. Since we’re still here, I figure it’s not too late!

“Consider what happened to Saint Francis of Assisi. One night he suffered terrible weakness and infirmity of body and spirit. In the midst of his suffering he felt he heard God’s voice. ‘Tell me, brother if anyone should give thee in return for thy infirmities and sufferings, a treasure so vast and precious that the whole earth by comparison would be as nothing to it, wouldst thou not greatly rejoice?’ Francis agreed he would, saying, ‘Great indeed, O Lord, would be this treasure and very precious.’”

That helped me understand better what Paul said this way in 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 NKJV  Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Wrote the above yesterday. Today I tested positive for Covid again! A reminder that once again my schedule is in His hands!!