The fact that it’s not the same without Mom and Joe has been a source of on-going grief and loss. Finally, God broke through, and I realized expecting life or even wanting life not to change is unreasonable. Of course, at one level I knew that everything changed, but at a deeper level, I didn’t want it to. But if God could only give me what wouldn’t change, I could have nothing on this planet! The only thing God can give me that will not change is Himself! Even though I loved what I had and miss what I had, letting go of unreasonable is freeing! It’s a step forward in this journey. God has been very faithful to bring to me what I need when I am able to receive it. If someone had told me this earlier, it wouldn’t have registered, or it would have probably made me upset with them!